But I Don’t Want to be a Socialist

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I’m torn between two social systems.

My dissatisfaction


Hospitals, doctors, churches, governments are all evaluated on their performance. Only a small part of that performance is of curing illness. The biggest remaining portion is decided by profit. We know this and realize this, but it doesn’t hit us in the face until you or your family need care. Especially expensive care. I gathered as many of my thoughts as I could trying to understand what I feel is wrong with society. I’ve been troubling over this for some time. Years.



“FedEx used to believe that they were in the customer service business, and that speed and reliability were the driving factor behind everything they did. Now, it seems, they are in the profit business. That the purpose of all of those people and all of those trucks and planes is to maximize profit. The rest is merely a means to that end.” Seth Godin, What’s It For?


We are there for our families. We don’t expect our children to make a profit. We raise them for 20 or so years because we love them. Our society is based on greed. And my impossible dream seems even more impossible after I realized the wall I keep running into, which is the two priorities. Nurture vs Profit.


It dawned on me in a moment of complete panic. My differing views are covered by Marxism or Socialism. I also realized that made me the enemy. I am the hated Socialist. But no, I’m a Capitalist. All of these years I’ve been trying to figure out what is wrong with society or what is wrong with the government. Why do they not care for their people? I know now. I have been the naive Marxist.


Social Styles


I found an article online regarding the difference between Marxism and Capitalism. I found it interesting, maybe even a bit grounding, but now I am confused. In theory, Marxism or Socialism is a more giving society except that I’ve seen the end result in many European and Asian countries. These are ruled by strict iron fists and it never turns out well for the people. The citizens are oppressed and it reminds me of gray cloudy days. Sad. The only one close to my ideal is France, although it’s not officially a socialist society. Some do call it that, but it’s still a capitalist country. In the way our current world is structured, I don’t think it’s possible to have the ideal that I would wish for and that leaves me sad. I would love to see a society where the people are the main goal, their welfare and the raising of the family. Maybe it isn’t time yet for this world to maintain that style of living. A girl can dream. I can imagine that we could work at jobs and produce food for our families and not be worried that someone will take our homes from us, but our world’s ideology would have to be upgraded a few notches.


Nurturer in a Profit driven world


Until then, I suppose we have to work with what we have. My main concerns about the Capitalist society is in the healthcare and educational arenas. We are heading in a more caring direction. I hope we continue.


  • Immunizations for all and at least the basic of healthcare needs met.
  • I would also like to see religion not be as damning and punishing, withholding love from people.
  • There’s plenty of room in the fields of charity and training, teaching in the basics of caring for ourselves.
  • I would like our society to be a generous society. One that provides for its own and does not withhold goods for survival.
  • We should be beyond survival. It seems we are held down to that level of fear needlessly. We are just inches away from attaining what we need and it moves just a bit.

We as humans are clever enough to use both capitalism and socialism to our advantage. Neither are evil in their own rights. It matters only how they are used.


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The Price of Being Right


When I think about my beliefs on how society functions and what I would like our world to look like, I get this wish to make it happen. Visionaries in our society have often been glorified and sometimes rightfully so. I think of Martin Luther and Mother Teresa who have freed many from the bondage of religious beliefs. There is a balancing act. Churches exist to help the needy. To give strength to the weak. To feed the poor. Somewhere in the process, they become the cripplers, the takers, and the tyrants.

I was speculating recently about my perfect society. The one where we all live together in harmony. The one where goods are shared and all are fed. All are honored. Can’t we all just get along?


I was curious about my hopes for society, how they compared to earlier beliefs and social systems. Marxism was one that stood out to me. And that is disappointing to me since the results were nowhere near what I had dreamed. The dreamer in me, that blonde-haired idealist, wants peace, but so much more. I want children to grow up strong and whole. I want parents to have what they need to raise those children. I want teachers to have tools to teach and children to have the access to learning. I love growth.

It’s not peace I want, not mere contentment. It’s boundless joy and ecstasy for me. -Kugell

Before we all start singing ‘round the campfire and holding hands, fan away the smoke from your eyes. Here is my issue. Yes, I want these things. What I don’t want is another Stalin or Jim Jones. So for a reality check, I have to take a step back. What makes a monster like Hitler? What causes a leader to brainwash his followers? They are RIGHT! They have The Truth.

Leaders take note. If you are headstrong and charismatic, people will follow, regardless of any truth or you even having the people’s best interest in mind. I find this sad. There are many helpful people in our world. These kind folks don’t have the charisma of David Koresh. There are hordes of people running to listen en masse.  Does this devalue their truth? Absolutely not. I think our issue is more that we want a Messiah. We need our white horse riding, strong-armed warrior. We want and crave a leader who is elegant and fierce. And why?

Why do we crave a hero? For the same reason, social systems such as Marxism swerve away from their origin. Social Equality is an important idea. And there are those who could work with each other and make a village style society work. On the other side of that argument, others are afraid without guidance. Not everyone has grown up. Many still believe that we need a church or a government instructing us, or else we would end up in chaos and violence.  Possibly, they are right.

Tweet: The price of being right is tyranny. It’s Jim Jones and his mass suicides. Truth is never forceful.

I don’t wish to push my ideal society or my ideal lifestyle on anyone. The price of being right is tyranny. It’s Jim Jones and his mass suicides. Truth is never forceful. Love is kind and patient. It doesn’t need to use charismatic persuasion to make you believe. And it refuses to allow others to follow blindly.

If there is no savior what will we do? The end of the world didn’t come. The pot of gold was not where we thought it should be. Now we stumble along until enough people wake up. When enough wake-up and realize that maybe it’s time we take care of ourselves, then it’s possible we can discuss this around the table. Then we can treat each other with the respect we all deserve. We are all equals. No one man or one government is RIGHT. Not even ourselves. It’s very tempting to believe that an angel on high gave us the answers, but what made us so special? Isn’t that the beginning of madness? My next question would be, why do I need to feel that special?